For some reason, today is harder than most. I just got done getting caught up on So You Think You Can Dance and there was a dance that just brought out so many tears. I can't stop now. I've never listened to the words before and the dance just brought out all these emotions. I know it has to do a lot with the fact that it's Amy's birthday tomorrow, Jason's out of town and I miss him terribly and Kylee is with her Daddy. So the song kind of explains how I've been feeling when they're not there by my side.
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
OhI'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
But how do you expect meto live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
So how, do you expect me, to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
I have these days a lot and I'm hoping it's not an "abnormal" way to grieve? Some times I wonder. On the up side, being by myself so much, it's forced me to learn how to cope. I've found my love for working out and dancing again. I forgot just how much I love music and how much I like myself. =) I'm finally to the point where I'm sick of being sorry for myself and I'm going to put all this negative energy into something positive. (At our dance jam class last night, the song "Man In the Mirror" came on. What a great song, huh?) Told ya, lovin music again.
One other good thing is my hubby comes home late tonight and I get to cover him with all my kisses! And maybe a little more.... Ha ha.
P.S. Another song that comes to mind is that Gary Allen song: "Life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride"
4 comments:
Your blog looks amazing- you'll have to teach me :) You have such a cute family. Hang in there. Cry as much as you need to (just know that I will always just tell you to stop crying!) - but lovingly...
Welcome to the blog world...Yeah, it turned out nice. way to go.
Hi shells...yay I'm glad you got some time to work on your blog! Glad to see you figured it out!! It's way CUTE!! Thanks for the comment on Britt your such a great friend!! Your's was making me cry! Oh I miss you! Well hopefully I will see you when I come in! Love ya..=)
just an fyi. i miss you & love you and i'm sorry you were having a rough day. if you ever need anything im here.
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